Having a "Need a Hug Moment"

So this is my outlet so I don't write anything negative in my letters to Jared. I want him to stay focused and positive. I have been on a group site for families with soldiers who are at BCT in the same Company as my husband. They are split into platoons after that. Several platoons in my husbands company received hour long phone calls today and cell phone pictures. They must have done something amazing to get that. I have to say I am pretty jealous. I sat here crying because of it. I am happy for those families but today when I came home Isabella brought me the phone several times asking to call daddy and on our way to AZ we stopped at Matt & Jennica's and she found their phone and did the same thing. She also kept asking for him today. I remained strong for her but soon as she fell asleep I balled my eyes out. It has only been two weeks but tonight it felt like a lifetime. Today was the hardest! I can't wait to hear from him again, I find myself writing him all the time because he was the one I could tell anything to. I long to have that back.

Sorry for the depressing post but like I said these are the raw feelings!

Property of the U.S. Army!

Warning: This is also my journal so Jared can read what has been going on when he arrives in Texas for AIT after he graduates Basic.

It's official, Jared belongs to the Army now! Jared left on Feb 13th and arrived at Ft Jackson, SC on Feb 15th. He spent 5 days in reception (orientation, paperwork) then began official Basic Combat Training last Saturday. I heard from him on the 21st informing me of his address and telling me it was the last time we could talk on the phone for awhile. Phone calls are a privalage, one that is frequently lost. He says that he has a few challenged people in his platoon which means he will be really buff when he comes home.....still has his humor even after getting smoked (push-ups, pt) all the time. He asked for pictures and letters, he really misses us!

On the home front: Right before Jared left we received an offer on the house so we quickly put in all the papers. Now to the person who sent letters to my neighbors and to the people who think I moved to South Carolina. I am still here, the house has not closed yet. I am moving to Las Vegas with Isabella and I will continue working at the FD.

I have been struggling the last couple of days, I really miss him. I miss him even more because Isabella is sick. She has been staying in Las Vegas for the two days I am at work, the first day I get home she really pushes her limits and is whiny and clingy. I feel bad, but I know she is ok and even more glad to know that Matt & Jennica take such good care of her. I think the hardest part is knowing I can't talk to Jared, knowing he is going through physical and mental pain so we can have a better life. I broke down in tears a couple of times but only for a few seconds. Last night at midnight Izzy was coughing so hard she almost puked, she couldn't breathe through her nose, had a fever and was miserable. I had to clean out her nose, medicate her and then came the reward... we snuggled till I was falling asleep.

I know this last couple of days is one of the "tough times". I am glad we are getting it out of the way right off the bat. I have a whole new respect for all of the military families. I know I am not the first to go through this and I am grateful for all of the support I have. I love my family and friends and really appreciate all that they do for us.

I watched Isabella kneel and fold her arms so reverently for bedtime prayers tonight, she sat in the chair and read books so preciously and kissed me goodnight. I kissed her goodnight for papa and she pointed towards the door and said papa. She frequently points to the door when she hears noise and says papa! She loves looking at the pictures of daddy.

I had to take out the trash today, i know most of you are laughing but in our house Jared has always done this. He also is the one that scrubs the toilets. I was so useed to him doing it I almost forgot, thank goodness for all my neighbors cans being out reminding me. I ran from the time I woke up till I put Izzy to bed. I am determined to get more organized. Izzy was a good helper, she loaded the washer, mopped (after I did), vacuumed (followed me helping with the cord), I will have her shining the china in no time!

Next post will be with recent events and pictures! I am going to post at least twice a week so Jared will get to see life at home!